Just you, with you.
The family you need.
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I’m a tracker with the Tarot.
A common scene: 5 years ago, a first-time client books a session after finding me through The Reluctant Tarot Reader. I already feel the rumblings in their marriage but my client is not ready to consider peering in that direction, so we stay in their needs for the time being. I make it a point to respectfully remain in the room where invited, rather than snoop around the house — but already know this marriage is doomed. But hey, who knows? Up to them.
One year ago.
This same client contacts me — and it’s a delight to reconnect. I liken the return as coming back from a long journey and hearing reports of their adventure. As I felt five years ago, the marriage is now headed for divorce and my client is distraught. There are difficult complications of both family and lawyer tedium, both of which she can barely address. She is in the midst of the Tower, her world of two decades so carefully built now crumbles around her feet. She heard the siren call years ago but like most humans, she only wants what is gone to remain.
But it’s already gone. It began 5 years ago. In fact, long before that — but here we are. What she can’t see is her enormous strength and — dare I say — excitement for the future that is hidden below her grief, anxiety and terror of loss. In other words, FREEDOM. Now she remains in fantasyland of what was and maybe I can change my partner, rather than see that it is finished because she wanted it so. She won’t remain there forever.
I see it — and someday she will.
This week.
My client calls. It’s been one year since the Tower and though she still deals with lawyer tedium and waves of loss, she is incredibly balanced and able to view the situation with a much clearer understanding of the whole. Fantasyland has been replaced with reality — a.k.a. what her partner is really like — and her mind is more interested with creating her life in the present. Exploring, learning to forgive and be easier on herself. She also loves to hear about her future self, happy and free, meeting others and eventually having a solid, fun and peaceful partnership. Right now, she needs her sisters/sisterhood. Later on, the men will arrive.
Strength of will kept the marriage stuck. Strength of will brings her into a new life. Same energy. How it is used makes all of the difference.
It’s as clear as day in my cards. I didn’t create it. She created it for herself, then allowed me to see the vision. It’s not yet here in the physical — she’s not ready and still deals with paperwork, kids, et al., — but this beautiful new experience will arrive in the next couple of years and eventually she will marry again within five years.
(By the way, a big thanks to all of my divorced clients. Like Margaret says in North and South, I shall never be married!)
One year ago I asked, If you were to find yourself after death walking the road of eternity just with yourself, could you do it? Would you be happy with your company? Could you enjoy being you — with you?
Open and receptive as she was, she didn’t have an answer then. She wanted the past, the partner who didn’t exist and to avoid pain. That’s normal.
That client from a year ago is now replaced with this client: happy, laughing and delighting in her autonomy. It’s a weird, tender space like new skin but she loves to explore this present iteration of self. Even the notion of dating, new friends, having time to herself and never asking permission — makes her feel a little nervous and excited for the “future”. But the future is now, always now, and what she experiences in her personality of today. What she envisions, desires and even the unknown spaces that beckon . . .
The picture of how her life unfolds in the cards is incredible — and I share as her energy allows. It’s never good to overload a client even with amazing visions because they need to have the bandwidth to receive. Yet I hope that in five years — even after I’m retired — that she will return with what I see now. Simple, elegant, wealthy and fun. I know it is about it appear — and hope it is even better than she imagined.